Love, No Love

And now I know
that I am a terrible person

because you have told
me so a hundred times over

and now I know that I never loved you

because you have told
me so hundred times even more

what I am is a liar
who I am is the person
who destroyed your life

I’m disgusting
I’m horrible
I’m selfish
I’m immature
I’m irresponsible

I’m deserving only of a thousand knives to stab at my body
and a thousand steel pins to bleed out my soul, rotten and sick
as it must be – a vile congregation of animal parts
and animal wants

– A. Ramirez

All my love has ever accomplished is to destroy those it touches.


Another Love Song

love song
comes on the radio
and I walk across
the room
to shut it off
so now
it’s just me and
the moon which
looks like
an unhappy
glass of water
hanging out
over the mountain tops
and in the dark
I draw a sentence
of colorful lines
while trying to avoid
the machine gun blasts
of a half insane woman
who rattles my guts
with mortar shells of love
and drives me under
the bed
seeking refuge
in the written

– A. Ramirez

I think I have enough material for another book of poetry. This one will be a paperback as well as an eBook. I’m looking forward to putting it together and editing.